Pom pom trimmed morrocon trimmed bedsheets

i need this in my life

http://muima.bigcartel.com/product/braided-palm-leaf-pouf-60

Listen to this: Glass Animals

Daddy was dumb, said that I'd be something special
Brought me up tough but I was a gentle human
Said that he loved each of my two million freckles
When I grew up, was gonna be a superstar

I can't get a job so I live with my mom
I take her money but not quite enough
I sit in the car and I listen to static
She said I look fat but I look fantastic

Come back down to my knees
Gotta get back, gotta get free
Come back down to my knees
Be like them, lean back and breathe
Come back down to my knees
Gotta get back, gotta get free
Come back down to my knees
Be like them, lean back and breathe

I'm waking up, lost in boxes outside Tesco
Look like a bum sipping codeine Coca-Cola
Thought that I was northern Camden's own Flash Gordon
Sonic raygun, gonna be a superstar

I can't…

Daddy was dumb, said that I'd be something special
Brought me up tough but I was a gentle human
Said that he loved each of my two million freckles
When I grew up, was gonna be a superstar

I can't get a job so I live with my mom
I take her money but not quite enough
I sit in the car and I listen to static
She said I look fat but I look fantastic

Come back down to my knees
Gotta get back, gotta get free
Come back down to my knees
Be like them, lean back and breathe
Come back down to my knees
Gotta get back, gotta get free
Come back down to my knees
Be like them, lean back and breathe

I'm waking up, lost in boxes outside Tesco
Look like a bum sipping codeine Coca-Cola
Thought that I was northern Camden's own Flash Gordon
Sonic raygun, gonna be a superstar

I can't…

Here is their live show on kcrw

http://www.kcrw.com/music/shows/morning-becomes-eclectic/glass-animals-2016-08-29

Kanye

I want to be like Kanye by the chainsmokers :)

I'm a fan of Kanye and Kim
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPcOSrowRu4

Also he got a phone for Kim
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4p_Ebg6enKM

I like that they are independently successful but also in love.

Silog

The Filipino breakfast

Filipino breakfast can be a variety of things. For one it can be as simple as fresh bread with some freshly made cheese. Also known as pan de sal.

Silogs: usually garlic fried rice, fried egg, and a meat :) 

Most of the time it is rice.. Specifically garlic fried rice. I swear for the most part my dad just Pam fries day old rice, garlic powder, and salt. Sometimes there was real garlic but I don't remember that the usual. While I do keep garlic powder around, i do like to use fresh garlic especially when it's avail. 

Also fried egg and meat, usually a vinegary pork sausage called longinisa, cured sweet pork called tocino, dried garlicky beef called tapa, or even smoked fish. 

Other common things for breakfast include a noodle dish called palabok, has a constrach based sauce that's colored orange with annato. Served with pork rinds, pork, green onion, and calamansi.

Champarado is another favorite. That is a  chocolate rice porridge used glutinous rice, evaporated milk, coconut milk, cocoa, sugar. 

Another coming breakfast item is arroz Caldo, which is a rice porridge chicken soup that is gingery and served with fried garlic, hard boiled eggs, pork rinds, and calamansi.

See my photo below. I also have salted egg on the corner, mixed with a little fish sauce, cilantro, fresh tomatoes, and green onions.

I've been a Filipino food cooking spree. I'll try to share photos.

Here was my breakfast for lunch plate the other day. Best part: locally made sausages by Taylor Sausages in Oakland. 

SILOG:

Wes Anderson Movies

So I figured out the other type of genre of movies I liked. Cute movies. Director that definitely captures that spirit is Wes Anderson. His movies usually involve fun story telling, interesting colors on the screen, ode to a past era, lovable characters, fashion inspirations, and forbidden and young love. 

Wes Anderson Films such as Grand Budapest Hotel, The Royal Tenenbuams, and Moonrise Kingdom. 

Moonrise Kingdom is now on Netflix and On Demand on Comcast. Please watch it. Moonrise Kingdom is a coming of age, romance story. Nothing is as sweet as that kind of love, when heartbreak does not appear to be eyes of ones in love. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7N8wkVA4_8s

Royal Tenenbuams is fun for the quirky smart characters and unconventional love stories that also budded from a young love.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Eg6yIwP2vs

Grand Budapest:

Also another coming of age movie. I see a trend here in my movie DNA preference. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zru-1DbbcsA

Haven't had a post in awhile

I'm current NOT feeling happy or fabulous. Sunday's tend to leave me asking existential questions that I don't have the answers to. My finances, my body, and my love life can use a little help. I can be thankful for at least liking where I work, my comfy home, having a car, and some food to eat. Opportunities to travel, get new clothes, and get my hair and nails would be great too. I know those are all extras in life, but I'm human, and have this hole in my chest that will never be filled.

Tonight's TJ meal

Penne Aribiatta with grilled eggplant and zuchinni. Those are 2 seletste dishes combined. Both the frozen section. Ready in 5 mins and good. 

TJ

If yA said TJ to me 10 years ago I might have thought you were talking about Tijuana, as that is how we referred to party town in college. However now, TJ means Trader Joe's! Sure I've shopped at trader joes for snacks and stuff but I never shopped there for food. You can thanks my roommate, bc every Sunday, we head to trader Joe's and we come home with some goodies. Here are some of our usuals/staples and cool stuff we've discovered:

Thai red curry with chicken (section: refrigerated ready to eat) 

I threw it in my pressure cooker with long green beans and asian eggplant. Viola: 

5 mins later and some white rice and fragrant and fast dinner is prepared.

Chicken tikka masala: Frozen section 

About 4 tiny pieces chicken, basmati rice, And lotsa sauce. This is a good  fast meal, for something I have no idea how to make.

Salads!

One of my favorite salad of thiers is thier chicken , argula, and couscous salads I always buy an extra bag of arugula for 1.99 and always add some in! Really stretches out my lunch.

Other good choices: Kale, chicken, cranberry salad; peanut chicken noodle salad. I save $ when I'm spending $4 on a salad instead of $10 eating out do lunch. 

Chicken salads

I like both thier regular chicken salad and this wine county chicken salad with cranberries. Both are good over salad or even rice (I know wierd).

Puttanesca with ground turkey and lemon peppper fettuccini

Yes all of those together! I love puttanesca and thiers out of the jar is pretty good. 

Tortillas, cheese, carnitas= tacos, quisidillasas for whenever

And that's it folks. I'm tired!

Baby seedless Concord grapes: this was a recent find of mine! I usually don't like TJ produce but this was good.

Fettuccini Alfredo w just grilled chicken: instant pasta yes yes 

hashbrowns:

And thier rectangular just like your favorite fast food place. 

Thanks TJ for making grocery shopping affordable. 

Things TJ needs:

Breakfast sausage 

July shenanigans

My lime crime lips and a freshly dipped watermelon Popsicle. 

I wanted to get balloons like this for my bday but forgot. Hah.

We went clubbing! 

The best and the most $$$ chamorro meal you will ever have. 

Strawberry pigigy!

Ferry building oysters!

Vegan Kare kare at Pampalasa, a new filipino restaurant in the SoMa area where Bayani is the chef at. 

Last drinks with Bebot and Tony. Best part when the old folks don't get it. "Why are people here? Why is the table like this? Look at the floor. It's unfinished. There's nothing going on." The bar had a penis statue which my auntie found amusing. 

We celebrated national tequila day. 

I was even envious of a ex-dudes body. AsiaSF. 

Iranian food at Lavash..

I even went to a toga party 

Had spam at Santa Cruz

Family family friends

I got to hang out with a lot of family this week. My auntie and uncle are in town and thanks to a flop in our communication, they were supposed to stay with me, but then they ended up staying in the city. I went to city almost every day this week. Marina and Russian Hill on Sunday, Mission on Tuesday, SoMa on Wednesday, Inner Sunset on Thursday, and back to SoMa on Friday. Saturday was Embarcadero in the morning, Mission for Dinner, and then SoMa for some dancing, Tenderloin for some late night eating. It's been fun and the best part was most of it was with family! There's a lot of love there. Sunday, we woke up a full home with all my nieces and nephew over and made breakfast, and then I headed out back to the Sunset area for some Twirl and Dip and Art at the deYoung.
There was a lot of good food. I went back to Lolinda for the 3rd time in 2 weeks. Revolution Cafe for some live music for a second time. I even went to AsiaSF, which I have not gone to in over 10 years! Definitely a San Francisco must. The good food continuted onto the weekend. We made a reservation at Pampalasa, a rustic Filipino place in the SoMa area where Bayani is the chef. everything was good! I liked the sotoghon soup. The broth was very rich and flavorful. Ukoy, which was battered and fried vegetables was perfectly crisp the way your favorite onion rings are. Pancit bihon was flavorful Fresh lumpia with a coconut crepe was light and refreshing. Sago with handmade tapioca. Desert of sweet tofu (taho) did not disappoint! appropriately named, the food is flavorful. Pampalasa (lasa = taste).
I had not planned it, but I ended up having dinner at Prubechu, currently the only Chamorro restaurant, and it is in the mission. I crashed my sister's large party as I ordered a la carte and picked on whatever the kids did not want to try. It was a lot of food. And after that some dancing. To end the might, Korean food, at COCOBANG, which did not disappoint. Sunday equalled more guam food redux. And a trip to the sunset area for shopping, food, and art. Time to sleep.

Sunday and currently in my 30s now

Turned 30 with a bang this year. I had an all weekend celebration and still some events planned for next weekend.

I tell people that my social life here, began shortly after the first birthday I had here. I had a slightly quiet birthday last year and we are all certainly allowed to have those in our lives, I spent it mostly  with family and reflecting, a couple weeks later, is when I planned my first social outing, and of course it was soo much food, and I took baby steps planning it, but it was fun in the end. Summer continued and so did the city outings, and me enjoying my new schedule, with my evenings free. 2015 brought on its new challenges, a new job that demanded more hours again, and me adjusting to that. I used to live for the weekends. I had a crazy social calendar, with most days of the week filled out, and I would send to friends, so they can plan theirs too. The last "free" weekend went out with a bang, I was able to spend it out of town with a friend up in the mountains, and before that a bachlorette weekend in Vegas. My work has a peak season, and when we started preparing for that, all hands were on deck, and even that very first weekend that I worked on the weekends, I had to cancel a weekend trip to Healdsburg with Itinerary planned. That trips remains to be unscheduled where I will have food, wine, and ice cream awaiting for me to try.

It's Sunday and along with Sunday comes the Sunday Blues. Usually thoughts like, "Why'd I'd eat so much?" or "Why'd I drink so much?" comes to mind. Tiredness and restlessness go hand in hand. Promises made to self. Schedule this appointment and that appointment.  Talk to the boss about this and that. Anxieties about work and relationships are pondered.

Anyway.. cheers to this week. I will try to post pics of my celebrating soon! It was a good birthday! I promise ya!

Current mood

my music. Not sure how unique my current taste of music is but I haven't found my "music" buddies. Friends I can go to shows with kinda thing. Sometimes I make it to shows alone. Like I did for Jenny Lewis and Likki Li, and I browse through the audience wondering about people lives, who they are, what's thier story.. Like the gentlemen that I picked up my tics from? Who is this gentlemen that works in law and buys Jenny Lewis tickets that he cannot make it to. Anyhoo. This is my current mood. Beirut. Postcards from Italy. Start there then listen to Nantes. And then.. The prostitute from Marseille. They have a show in berkeley. I hope to go. Also I did not get tog tab outsideland yics this year and there's actually quite a number of artists I want. Angus and Julia stone has been on my list for awhile now. Anyhoo. Here is Beirut. Can they be the band at my wedding? 

http://youtu.be/X61BVv6pLtw

Stress :)

I'm just a walking stress ball. You can ask me to do the simplest task and I can feel my body react to it. Have you seen that TED talk, "stress is your friend." Because nothing would get done without stress! This is true. But how do I change myself so I am not always freaking out. Hah. I don't know :)

What type of movies do you like?

Another date question. And my answer to that is unusual too. I say, "I like sad movies.Usually sad indie films. Dark comedies. Especially ones with a great soundtrack. " I'm not sure when I started liking them. Maybe it's because it's a reminder that everyone has their struggles. Love isn't perfect. Life is hard. Anyhoo. I don't have cable so my entertainment has been reduced down to my phone. Thanks goodness for Netflix, which I don't even always have time to watch. Anyway. Right now I'm in the middle of wAtching "happy christmas" with Anna Kendrick and lena Dunham (um yeah!) . It's about a dysfunctional baby sister coping with her just recent breakup, and she moves in with her older brother. She's irresponsible and can't even be trusted to babysit.(lol btw I've barely ever watched my kabillion neice's and nephews with the exception of Kylan, because well, he is like my lil' bro.) she goes out drinking and embarrassingly passes out on the hosts bed. I have not done that. But I've passed out in bars. U usually can't move me at that point. Anyhoo. I still have to finish the movie. Movie is kinda slow as you just watch her move through her new daily routine. 

Other good selections on Netflix right now is Chef. A divorced chef, forgets about his dreams, is pushed to remember it, with the help of ex wife and ex wife's exhusband (see sometjmes you got to let go out your ego). The filming is awesome. I took a friend to watch this movie and she was like "I'm never eating grilled cheese again. That's a lot of butter." I had the opposite reaction. Like what I want to go make one right now. Also the chef in the movie received training from chef roy choi (the korean food truck from LA. I mean chef roy choi has grown his empire to a much larger scale. But he has been credited with starting the food truck revolution. He's even restaurant a healthy fast food chain up her win the bay! Excited. )

France's ha, with Gretchen Hedwig (sp?) 20 somehing yo. Can't figure life out after she's done with college. 

Old boy. Which is an American remake of a korean movie. Crazy stuff! You must watch. Guy gets kidnapped for years and years and has no idea why. Be prepared to be traumatized. 

Silver linings playbook. Just by the name. There is a silver lining. Man is so devasted and obsessed with is ex who cheated on him. He goes insane. But there is a silver lining and power of dance. I love Jennifer Lawrence's lil back house with a dance studio in bottom. 

Thanks for sharing is good, but also painful and uncomfortable  to watch them go through thier addictions gweneth Paltrow is addicted to her healthy habits and mark ruffulo is a recovering sex addict.

Big fish. I like to watch it for the incredible love story (fables or not) that the father tells of his wife.

And then of course Drive because it's so LA. Mexican gangsters. Jewish mafia. Valley crimes. The Hollywood life. Plus I love the Moosic. 

Don't miss blue valentine. You watch  ryan and girl fall in love and out of love. And they can't help either. 

Do you dance?

Somehow that question has popped up in people's vernacular, as if the answer can possibly be no. I guess it can be. But usually my answer is along the lines of "yes. I kinda dance like a hippie" . Hah. Free spirit. Hands waiving in the air. I've attempted to dance. Growing up I took the occasionally dance class. Usually not getting too far, but at least trying. Anyway.. Have you heard of Kizomba? Very sexy dance of Angola. 

My eyes were glued. 

http://youtu.be/xkvlz7GnD6o

Is Guam Plan B?

Guam. That small little island I am from. I grew up there. Growing up, I always knew I would end up leaving. I think it just seemed like the thing to do. Both my older sisters did it. Summers were fun in the "states." My friends were all going. So off I went to college. College was hard, none the less. I struggled with the food, with making new friends, with how much more academically was expected from me. Throughout college I always wondered what I wanted to be when I grow up, and I was lucky enough to be given the education and the time to do so. Science classes, art classes, business classes, philosophy, writing, computer, and even fashion- I have explored. Alas my liberal arts education was not working out and I ended up in checkered pants and skull cap at Le Cordon Bleu. Well guess what, after my culinary education, I wanted my college degree, and I thought nutrition made a lot of sense, but in the end, I ended up with a food science degree, which was a better fit. Anyway, I just started working, and work is sometimes hard. I say this, but honestly, I am always beating myself up for not even working hard enough. And sometimes my brain spaces out to Guam. Is Guam plan B? Somewhere my brain day dreams off to, when life gets tough. The answer is yes. Why wouldn't living in warm weather, with beautiful beaches, and moving back home, sound like a bad idea? In the end though, my head always says  "nope nope can't do it."

Anyway. So I tell myself instead. Don't have a plan B. Be happy where I am at. Work hard. I will get where I want to be. Follow my gut instinct.

Let's hope I am not jinxing myself right now. Which I am totally scared I am doing!

Smart things I've heard today . . . QOTDs said by others.

Love someone who doesn't ask anything of you, and just loves you for you, because you are enough.

Sometimes I act in a way after I ask the question, "What would a confident person do?"

Five things

Five things I am grateful for:

1) My health. I can see, hear, smell, taste, and touch pretty well.
2) My body. Thankful for what it can do, how it looks, and it's potential to be stronger/leaner.
3) My car and gas, because how would I be able to get around!
4) The roof on top of head.
5) Good friends. Friends that will be for you in your good times and when you are at your worst.

Smoothies

So my $25 Hamilton Beach blender from Amazon ended up being so worth it. I really do eat 3 bananas a day. Not crazy 50 bananas and only bananas diet, but just that I feel better knowing I'm eating something wholesome for breakfast and that I am not starving when I arrive to work. I've been making a smoothie every morning.

Whats my usual recipe? 2-3 bananas, OJ or Grapefruit juice. I prefer Grapefruit juice, because I like the bitter flavor. I add berries, be it blueberries or strawberrys. I few ice cubes. Sometimes I will do half an avocado, some granny smiths, and maybe a lil spinach. I've also added mangoes. Yeah! It's a big breakfast! The best part is I don;t have to chew it, it just does straight down the hatch. I usually pack in old giant tubs of yogurt containers and I have a straw to go with it. I look crazy pretty much. It sounds like a lot of food in the morning, but think about it. You really think one banana is gonna hold you off until your lunch time? Also I feel energized and my brain loves that sugar it can run on in the morning. Also, it's really fast and easy to put together. Good luck!

Heart wants what it wants

Something about her monologue in the beginning in beginning feels so heartfelt. I can relate to feeling confident and feeling so great about oneself and then feeling completely shattered in a moment. It's crazy but true. You can be happy and on top of the world and the next moment that feeling is gone.