Guam. That small little island I am from. I grew up there. Growing up, I always knew I would end up leaving. I think it just seemed like the thing to do. Both my older sisters did it. Summers were fun in the "states." My friends were all going. So off I went to college. College was hard, none the less. I struggled with the food, with making new friends, with how much more academically was expected from me. Throughout college I always wondered what I wanted to be when I grow up, and I was lucky enough to be given the education and the time to do so. Science classes, art classes, business classes, philosophy, writing, computer, and even fashion- I have explored. Alas my liberal arts education was not working out and I ended up in checkered pants and skull cap at Le Cordon Bleu. Well guess what, after my culinary education, I wanted my college degree, and I thought nutrition made a lot of sense, but in the end, I ended up with a food science degree, which was a better fit. Anyway, I just started working, and work is sometimes hard. I say this, but honestly, I am always beating myself up for not even working hard enough. And sometimes my brain spaces out to Guam. Is Guam plan B? Somewhere my brain day dreams off to, when life gets tough. The answer is yes. Why wouldn't living in warm weather, with beautiful beaches, and moving back home, sound like a bad idea? In the end though, my head always says "nope nope can't do it."
Anyway. So I tell myself instead. Don't have a plan B. Be happy where I am at. Work hard. I will get where I want to be. Follow my gut instinct.
Let's hope I am not jinxing myself right now. Which I am totally scared I am doing!
Thursday, April 30, 2015
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Smart things I've heard today . . . QOTDs said by others.
Love someone who doesn't ask anything of you, and just loves you for you, because you are enough.
Sometimes I act in a way after I ask the question, "What would a confident person do?"
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Five things
Five things I am grateful for:
1) My health. I can see, hear, smell, taste, and touch pretty well.
2) My body. Thankful for what it can do, how it looks, and it's potential to be stronger/leaner.
3) My car and gas, because how would I be able to get around!
4) The roof on top of head.
5) Good friends. Friends that will be for you in your good times and when you are at your worst.
Monday, April 13, 2015
Smoothies
So my $25 Hamilton Beach blender from Amazon ended up being so worth it. I really do eat 3 bananas a day. Not crazy 50 bananas and only bananas diet, but just that I feel better knowing I'm eating something wholesome for breakfast and that I am not starving when I arrive to work. I've been making a smoothie every morning.
Whats my usual recipe? 2-3 bananas, OJ or Grapefruit juice. I prefer Grapefruit juice, because I like the bitter flavor. I add berries, be it blueberries or strawberrys. I few ice cubes. Sometimes I will do half an avocado, some granny smiths, and maybe a lil spinach. I've also added mangoes. Yeah! It's a big breakfast! The best part is I don;t have to chew it, it just does straight down the hatch. I usually pack in old giant tubs of yogurt containers and I have a straw to go with it. I look crazy pretty much. It sounds like a lot of food in the morning, but think about it. You really think one banana is gonna hold you off until your lunch time? Also I feel energized and my brain loves that sugar it can run on in the morning. Also, it's really fast and easy to put together. Good luck!
Whats my usual recipe? 2-3 bananas, OJ or Grapefruit juice. I prefer Grapefruit juice, because I like the bitter flavor. I add berries, be it blueberries or strawberrys. I few ice cubes. Sometimes I will do half an avocado, some granny smiths, and maybe a lil spinach. I've also added mangoes. Yeah! It's a big breakfast! The best part is I don;t have to chew it, it just does straight down the hatch. I usually pack in old giant tubs of yogurt containers and I have a straw to go with it. I look crazy pretty much. It sounds like a lot of food in the morning, but think about it. You really think one banana is gonna hold you off until your lunch time? Also I feel energized and my brain loves that sugar it can run on in the morning. Also, it's really fast and easy to put together. Good luck!
Sunday, April 5, 2015
Heart wants what it wants
Something about her monologue in the beginning in beginning feels so heartfelt. I can relate to feeling confident and feeling so great about oneself and then feeling completely shattered in a moment. It's crazy but true. You can be happy and on top of the world and the next moment that feeling is gone.
Saturday, March 7, 2015
The Balanced Life
I'm obsessed with food. Yeah? When I first went back to school, I thought I wanted to be an R.D. (Registered Dietitian). You see when I was jobless. All I did was work out 2x a day, eat really healthy, and be skinny. I was inspired. I probably thought I could do that for a living. Be a dietitian. That didn't work out. The stress of school (Organic Chem, BioChem, what?!) and studying caused me to overeat and then I left no time for working out. I also did not like the R.D. path which was training us to work with the ill, which is a great thing, but it was not my calling, especially considering my love for food for its pleasure, and considering how poorly I ate too. I ended up with my food science degree for several reasons. I think by that time I realized I was not into the whole R.D. thing. I was not interested in doing the 3 unit internship for it, taking the exam for it, or doing the one year long internship for it, going through the application process for it. I was supposed to be a double major actually, and at the time, because of budget cuts, the school made me pick one. Food Science or Nutrition. The choice was easy. Food Science. I didn't have to do that internship. I realized while doing my food science internship that I had a passion and interest for building food safety programs for businesses. And then I got my dream job at my dream company. I was be in charge of building the quality program for one of my favorite brands and products. It was set.
Anyway. This does not mean I am not chasing my dream of a balanced life. The one where I work, eat healthy, workout, take care of my mind, body, and health, while at the same time maintaining my friendships, spending time with family, and having a little fun here and there.
I thought about it recently, and my life is pretty balanced. I do get to eat well, workout, I have a great job, and a comfy home, great friends, and my family is nearby too. But I'm not doing enough. My belly is still huge! LOL. I get asked if I am pregnant, maybe at least once year. My belly just likes to hang out. I remember noticing my belly was kind of round since I was around 9, and I guess over the years, that belly just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I do eat a lot though, so I can't act dumb, and pretend I do not know where this belly came from.
Anyway. I'm trying to change up my workout routine, specifically, I'm trying to incorporate some running, even if it is just once a week. I've been doing bar method for over a year now, and I think I need something a little more, to really get my blood flow going, not that bar method does not do that.
You know another thing I like to do is go bouldering. It sounds so strange. But I like it. It's scary, because if I let go, my brain thinks I might die. Bouldering is rock climbing without the ropes. In a bouldering gym, you follow a colored tape path called a problem, and when you make it all the way to the top, you feel that instant gratification of accomplishment. Your heart is racing. Your arms are sore. It's perfect.
So I got sore legs from running, sore arms from climbing. Perfect.
Anyway back to the diet thing. Cutting off comfort food would be difficult for me. I grew up in a home, that always had a a good hot meal waiting for me cooked by my father. Food is how I knew my father's love. Also, there's all these diet theories out there, and it's to figure out which one will work for you. Eating healthy is kinda common sense. Eat a lot of veggies? Eat a lot of fat (french diet, bullet proof), eat like a caveman, cut out carbs, cut out wheat, calorie ristrict, Ah! what to do?! what to eat!
Anyway I found this chick, Frelee, recently. I've been intrigued by her diet theory. Hers is raw vegan, and mostly fruit! Aka high carb! this sounded like a yummy diet. All the fruit i want! MmmmMMmm. SHe believes in mono fruit meals too. Meaning you eat one fruit, so your body and brain does not take a lot of energy digesting the food. She is also called the banana girl because she believes that bananas a a good fruit to do this mono diet with because a lot of us are low in potassium. Also, you have to eat ripe bananas! No green bananas. Ok? She got me fantasizing that I can too can be like Frelee one day.
Anyway,
Here is just one of her videos. I kinda just picked it randomly.
Anyway. This does not mean I am not chasing my dream of a balanced life. The one where I work, eat healthy, workout, take care of my mind, body, and health, while at the same time maintaining my friendships, spending time with family, and having a little fun here and there.
I thought about it recently, and my life is pretty balanced. I do get to eat well, workout, I have a great job, and a comfy home, great friends, and my family is nearby too. But I'm not doing enough. My belly is still huge! LOL. I get asked if I am pregnant, maybe at least once year. My belly just likes to hang out. I remember noticing my belly was kind of round since I was around 9, and I guess over the years, that belly just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I do eat a lot though, so I can't act dumb, and pretend I do not know where this belly came from.
Anyway. I'm trying to change up my workout routine, specifically, I'm trying to incorporate some running, even if it is just once a week. I've been doing bar method for over a year now, and I think I need something a little more, to really get my blood flow going, not that bar method does not do that.
You know another thing I like to do is go bouldering. It sounds so strange. But I like it. It's scary, because if I let go, my brain thinks I might die. Bouldering is rock climbing without the ropes. In a bouldering gym, you follow a colored tape path called a problem, and when you make it all the way to the top, you feel that instant gratification of accomplishment. Your heart is racing. Your arms are sore. It's perfect.
So I got sore legs from running, sore arms from climbing. Perfect.
Anyway back to the diet thing. Cutting off comfort food would be difficult for me. I grew up in a home, that always had a a good hot meal waiting for me cooked by my father. Food is how I knew my father's love. Also, there's all these diet theories out there, and it's to figure out which one will work for you. Eating healthy is kinda common sense. Eat a lot of veggies? Eat a lot of fat (french diet, bullet proof), eat like a caveman, cut out carbs, cut out wheat, calorie ristrict, Ah! what to do?! what to eat!
Anyway I found this chick, Frelee, recently. I've been intrigued by her diet theory. Hers is raw vegan, and mostly fruit! Aka high carb! this sounded like a yummy diet. All the fruit i want! MmmmMMmm. SHe believes in mono fruit meals too. Meaning you eat one fruit, so your body and brain does not take a lot of energy digesting the food. She is also called the banana girl because she believes that bananas a a good fruit to do this mono diet with because a lot of us are low in potassium. Also, you have to eat ripe bananas! No green bananas. Ok? She got me fantasizing that I can too can be like Frelee one day.
Anyway,
Here is just one of her videos. I kinda just picked it randomly.
Sunday, February 1, 2015
2015
End of the 1st month of 2015 and so many things on my mind. Continuous self improvement, the meaning/point of life, what makes me happy, what is important is all on my mind. I know this blog is called happy and fabulous hazel and for the most part I am happy and fabulous, but 2015, man, I would say probably hit me like a ton of bricks. Definitely a turning point or awakening and making me think of things I've never considered. I'm turning 30 this year, and I know it's so cliche to be wondering about life when one reaches this point, But I've definitely been doing it. Happy 2015 ya'll. We can do this. We will make it!
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